Still Waiting

Friday, April 04, 2008

i'm actually kind of angry right now. but thinking about it in a logical way, i should not even fuss over what she said.

because of my personal flaws, someone, or rather most people feel sorry for me. but then again, it's my personal affair and if anyone should comment, i suggest them commenting with their friends when i'm not around or just keep their comments in their heart. if they have burning questions in them, they can come and ask me politely and i will definitely answer them the best way i can.

but i would NEVER and DON'T WANT to see a student's nick about me which goes:
Ms Yoong rocks, I pity her though.

OMG SO INFURIATING!!!!!!!!! that was my initial response.

but thinking in the logical way, i shouldn't bother myself with a person who have not even hit 16 years of age's comments. by the way i just feel upset that i couldn't be better, but i guess that's god's way of limiting people's capabilities so we don't surpass him(not saying i can, just a general statement) and sorry to those who feel sorry for me, but i don't feel sorry for myself.

at least i'm pretty.
i'm not fat.
i'm smart and i have a nice family, nice friends, nice boyfriend.
my boyfriend is rich and smart and funny but sometimes-not-funny.
my boyfriend loves me.
i can play percussion well better than others.
and the list will go on i promise. i will not shortchange my own life and happiness just because god shortchanged me of some fingers and a good left leg.
i'm contended with my life, (tho not all the time =p) much much luckier than those who don't know how blessed they are.

school is getting more fun now, and it seems like time is flying instead of crawling in my first week. 1 last week to go before i leave the school... (U)

BTW, i have even more infuriating things to share with you guys. THE MOST RIDICULOUS THING HAPPENED TO ME.

ISS HIRED A PERMANENT RECETIONIST.

i saw this coming along, and i have some grudges with the HR dept. guess it's the best time they got rid of me.

doesn't sound ridiculous right? now, here it is.

THEY DID NOT INFORM ME AT ALL. (i heard it from a friend)

immediately, several questions pop up in my head:

WHAT THE HELL?!??!? WHY WASN'T I INFORMED?
DID THEY EXPECT THAT SOMEONE IN ISS WHO KNOWS WILL COME FORWARD AND INFORM ME?
THEY CAN GET AWAY WITH IT WITHOUT FACING ME DIRECTLY AND THE OTHERS WILL DO THE JOB?
DO THEY EVER INTEND TO INFORM ME?
AM I STILL SUPPOSED TO GO BACK ON 14APR AS PER NORMAL?
WHY THE HELL DID THEY INFORM SO SLOWLY????? IF THEY CAN INFORM EARLIER THEN WHY NOT RIGHT, I CAN MAKE BACK UP PLANS FIRST RIGHT?
THEY ARE DOWNRIGHT DESPICABLE.
THEY ARE COWARDS WHO RUN AWAY FROM SITUATIONS OR LEAVE THEM UNTIL THE MATTER BLOWS UP.

good. thanks evon for telling me this piece of news. NOW, i know what i shall do already. i will go back as per normal on monday, and demand a good explanation, and make sure they are downright embarrassed and let even more colleagues know that the HR dept is extra f-ed up.

SO DAMN PISSED WITH THE BIRDS IN HR. REALLY BIRD.

anyway, im at gab's hse marking student's work now. i have tonnes of them! man. i should be prepares to go back to school tomorrow to finish off whatever is left for me. haiz.

also, today i went to coffee club with one of my ex teacher (only my close friends know =)). the people in coffee club is really weird. i wonder is it because my ex teacher is a regular customer so they kept on looking and me and smiling. or am i embarrassing myself with my dress with a flower on the side, or am i behaving weirdly or uncommonly that attracted their attention. OMG. they ain't discreet about looking at me at all. ALL of them, mostly guys, all look at me and smile at me. i felt so uneasy and so we left after long chats about the school. and my ex teacher told me it's normal.

NORMAL? like how?

i still cant figure out. even the supervisor walk pass me OBVIOUSLY looking at me and smiling very politely even when i try to avoid his gaze. maybe i'm the youngest of all females that my ex teacher brought there. LOL! but anyway, had a nice time chit chatting about all kinds of things.

that was this time the receipt thing got stuck. so we stood rather long at the cashier. and all the kitchen helpers took this chance to look at me long enuff, still smiling at the same time. the supervisor and head tried to solve the issue. some 3 waiters stand at another corner gossiping and looking at us. WTH. am i looking really so horrendous without make up that they have to smile at me and stare at me to let me know that i lok horrendous? GOSH.

then gab came to fetch me and i fell asleep and woke up at 730pm for dinner.

i know.. pig rite?

whatever. back to marking! and i realise i love teaching pasirians and working hand in hand with my ex teachers. they are so wonderful and nice, i wished i can relief teach forever. maybe i should try to enter NIE! hehehe.

ok gtg liao. hope no students pass by here.

-when are you coming back? ;